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Invisible by Clay Aiken

Whatcha’ doin’ tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[Repeat Chorus]

If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...

-

perhaps i alrd am? haiz.
in sch now.. hmm.. amic lab finish.. life's been tough.. haiz.. haiz. haiz!
rotted awy at home. if only rotting at home sheds pounds like "half-life" of a radioactive substance instead of gaining weight while bumming at home.. hmm.. tml werking.. at least wont rot tml.. not tat much.. sent the biochem bk for photo-copying.. heard abt the PBL 2 being the high performance liquid thingy.. damn freaky.. abit scared of amic too.. mus go photocopy bah.. so far.. abit lost in all the subjects.. mus buck up abit..
today ah.. ok loh.. morning go sch abchem meeting.. not much of a meeting.. end up become martial arts video watching session on sky's new laptop.. ha... power? hmmm..... then went to eat.. glad that ethan and jeremi still accompany me though they eat le.. kena poked in finger during haem lab.. mus draw blood.. pain-ded sia.. binzan poke hard.. at least learn something : the little cutter thing is nice to play wif.. i kop 3.. =P

and then life goes on, for someone is alrd attached...
wo meng de ai.. guo le jiu bu zai hui lai, zhi dao xian zai, wo hai mo mo de deng dai..

pardon me so being so "weird".. in an internal confusion stage of my life.. left with two choices.. take the short pain and easy way out, or the long pain and perhaps a chance will surface..

confused. blur. dilenma.. anyone can help me? i tink not.

ah!!! LATE LIAO.. MUST GO TO SCH LE!!!!!!
song:
Ling by Ke You Lun

从来不相信 我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦 寂寞 还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入 我的零度空间
宁愿孤独 懒得再去想谁
两个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭 (谁错谁对为谁抱歉) 不会再哭 (谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~
两个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭 (谁错谁对为谁抱歉) 不会再哭 (谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~
新的世界~

can go to this site : http://www.geocities.com/musicpara/KeYouLun.html . song is ling.
not bad..
The Reason By Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You..

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you....
hmm.. today sch start at 1pm.. slack sia.. slp later too.. went jogging in the morning though, so still wake up early.. hahaz. hmm.. e haematology tutorial quiz was alrite. quite ok. :) if u all need answ can ask me la.. if my tut earlier than urs.. budden is SHARE.. haha.. so nxt time if can, i also get from u. :P cheers to the test-cheating syndicate!
yet another meaningful song...

自我催眠 by 罗志祥

人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手
我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
等着红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了
我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过
聪明再多一些
我走在没有你的世界
却走不到永远
慢慢闭上双眼

chinese.. if really cant see, click here..


think cos blogger doesnt support chinese characters..
hmm.. phone ok liao.. no thanx to the sony ericsson ppl.. they say wat no warranty covered on accidents. only cover if workmanship not up to standard. so its kinda crap.. can use.. but abit sot sot. at least it came back to "life".. wonder if the same can happen for the other.... thinking too much..
Bo Bice - Inside Your Heaven

I've been down, now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation comin' around
I guess its right, its so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got, you lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

Chorus

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air your breathing in
A soothing wind, I wanna be inside your heaven

2nd Verse

When we touch, when we love
The stars line up, the wrong becomes undone
Naturally my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

Chorus

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind, I wanna be inside your heaven

3rd Verse

When minutes turn to day and years
If mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

Chorus

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

comment: this is how i felt all along.. but fate dictates that it will not occur anymore.
Simple plan - Perfect

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

comments: remove the dad part.. and u get......
perhaps its fate.. those memories wud be lost forever.. wud it? even the last trace of my past yr has been taken awy from me.. wats there in life now?
phone spoilt.. sigh.. keypad is goner.. cant fix watsoever.. all the previous and precious memories are found inside.. now they are all gone, all gone,,, everything is gone... now how am i gonna sleep at nite? how? i do not noe.
ah.. when u r happy, everything is gd even bad stuff can haf a good side to them.. but when u r sad and gloomy, everything seems so wrong.. even when u get a very slack subject, u wud find it a bothersome thing to do.. oh god, save me..
枫 by 周杰伦

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

this is lyrics of feng by jay chou. may need chinese software to view though. click here for the link!
haiz. sorta describe me bah. bah.. dun laff.. bah nvm. no one will believe.
1st day of sch. something missing from my life.. things seem less interesting.. the integral part of my life has disappeared. i tried to deny or ignore it. i cud for a short while. it jus resurfaced. wat shud i do? i do not know.
bah.. tml sch reopen.. having a heavy flu now.. kinda reluctant to go back to sch.. cud be due to tat reason.. the timetable was alrite.. jus tat, sch not gonna be the same for me le bah... first wk shud be quite slack.. mus use this time to buck up and get ready i guess..
yay! today go out wif brenn.. talk abt stuff, his and mine.. haiz.. looks like e band of bros in "Ass-Jab" (SJAB) of montfort all in sorta got problems.. mine is no hope le.. all i can do now is to help them get happiness. btw, today go watch movie.. go cineleisure... queue for abt 10-15min then reach the counter. the guy say sorry, counter closed, pls go nxt counter.. really wan to beat his ass up.. then he down there also dun wan tell us first. went to serve another customer food first.. crazy asshole. service in singapore really dipped to new and record depths. but aniwayz, when we went to the other line, almost our turn alrd then the tix sold out for the show.. the nxt show was 8 plus.. fed up liao.. went lido instead.. bought the 5.20pm tix to "skyhigh" there.. then walk abit.. the movie was nt bad.. kinda funny.. romance+comedy+action.. sigh.. but the romance parts hai.. but the movie is gd.. 4/5 stars? :)
ha.. today go jeremi hse slack.. haha.. play card watch movie.. :)
jeremy cook -> we (zg, aaron, me) become lab rats..
verdict of food:
Condition: Edible
Taste: Not bad
Looks: weird (vegeroni + tomato pasta sauce + shell fish + prawn?)
Overall: You will not die from this :P jk... ok la.. not bad.. actually quite gd le.. haha.. step-cute lucky got a cooking guy :P
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